give thanks

I am 40 weeks pregnant, and you would think that it would be fantastic to be pregnant on Thanksgiving, as did I.  However, when you are 40 weeks pregnant, you can eat a snow pea and feel so full that you can't even breathe, not to mention the intense heartburn that accompanies anything that goes in your mouth.  So tomorrow, instead of a day of gorging, will be a day of reflection and togetherness, as it should be. 

So much has happened since I last blogged.  I have learned that the people that you love the most in this world will also hurt you the most.  This is just something that is so hard to accept, but so true.  Humans are flawed.  We all know this, but it isn't until you are betrayed by your loved ones that you realize that people are so messed up.  All we can do is help each other through this life and put our complete trust in God, not humans.  We are all broken, we are all sinners.  Acceptance of that is extremely hard.  I'm working on it constantly.   

On another note, Elliot Claire Tracy is scheduled to enter this world on Sunday November 27, if she doesn't decide to make her grand entrance during my turkey dinner tomorrow.  Never tried induction before, but I hear you get your epidural right when you get there.  Amazing!!  I won't know what to do if I am able to have a child without 12 hours of excruciating pain.  Praise God for modern medicine and anesthesiologists!

On the eve of this Thanksgiving, I want to reflect on the many things that I am thankful for in my life: 
1)  a healthy 40 week pregnancy
2)  a healthy rambunctious 3 year old
3)  a great job
4)  a large family that loves me and supports me
5)  fantastic "TRUE" friends.  The kind that would stand by me no matter what and are more like family.  The kind that love me for me, the deep part, not the surface, shallow part.  In saying that, I am also grateful to be one of those "TRUE" friends to others.
6)  I am grateful that God gave me the wisdom and the personality to keep my mouth shut.  I've learned that this is extremely difficult for alot of people.  I am grateful that this is not my struggle.
7) I am grateful also that God made me trustworthy.  My husband has always told me that he loves that I am so loyal.  I personally think that this is the way we are all supposed to be.  We are not supposed to hurt each other.  We are supposed to stand by each other and do whatever it takes to support each other.  This life is hard and there is absolutely no need to make it harder on our own account. 

There is so much more, but I'll stop on that note.  Next time I blog, I'll have a newborn.  YIKES!!!  Not sure if I am ready.............